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Sunday, March 12, 2006, 3:33 PM
1st move
oh yah, did i mentioned? i JUS found a new job 2! but more bout dat ltr.. aniwae, i received my enrolment notice on sat. i only realised it now! 2 enrol in poly, u have 2 do sho much things. like go 4 medical checkup. submit enrolment online den send in those financial thingys like de application 4 tuition grant, giro, cpf, etc. i read until i'm sho blur lahx. still got checklist 4 de things we're supposed 2 submit lohx. after submition, still nid go apply 2 wat ez-link card n student dunnoe-wat-matric- card. i'm nervous n excited all at de same time. poly ish finally happening le. lolx! wat's my future gonna b like? hope everything goes well..
but 1 thing i'm sad about. i noe wo zai zuan nui jiao jian but.. as i reiterate in my last post, make new frenx but keep de old. how m i going 2 kip de old when its always mi who initate de conversation be it online or wat? when i always nid 2 msg dem b4 dey will msg mi back. when i nid 2 call dem or ask dem 2 call mi b4 dey would do sho. i feel like i'm de 1 who wants 2 kip de frenship alive but it looks like dey r not interested. take tis instance, we decided 2 go out on tis 1 dae but haven set de details. she asked mi 2 call her den i forgot bout it till at nite. it was near 11pm le, but she nv called mi herself or msg mi 2 ask mi bout our outing tml. makes mi wonder, if i din rmb n din msg her asking bout de details, would she call mi or wat? or would de outing jus nv happen?
i noe i'm like being tis clingy gerl. mayb its cuz i'm sho bored now n have alot of time 2 tink bout things, n meet my frenx. but tis really starts mi tinking.. ish it cuz i'm not a gd enuf frenx 4 dem 2 wan meet mi? m i not exciting/ enthu enuf 4 dem 2 have fun wif mi on de outings? m i boring? or m i hard 2 stand? i noe my temper n mood r smth less than gd. kl once said i was high-maintanence but i din agree wif her den. now, i TOTALLY agree. i hate de way i'm tinking n acting now. i hate myself 4 undermining mi, i hate myself 4 spoiling my own self-esteem n confidence.
NO! i can't tink like dat anymore. i'm gonna put tis behind mi n jus carry on wif my life. i'm gonna b more independent. although i'm sad when i tink bout my frenships, how many close n gd frenx do i truly have? , i'm gonna jus let it go n let nature takes its own path. usually i'm not like tis. usually when frenship sort of fades, i'll b abit sad dat we can't remain as b4 n instead bcum jus frenx who says hi n bye, but i won't tink sho much, i won't bcum insecure. i guess only time can tell, mayb dey r jus fair-weather frenx, jus a passing chapt in my life. mayb yrs ltr, when i c dem, i won't even recognize dem. dat's saddening, no matter who it happens 2. if dey c tis, all i can say ish, could u all jus call mi up or msg mi smth instead of mi having 2 make de 1st moves? let's take turns, can?
i better not tink bout tis anymore, its depressing!
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audrey
26oct
I'm a daydreamer. I'm contrary & I think too much.
I love xiaolongbaos, guo tie & udon.
A huge red Elmo accompanies me to sleep.
I like kids, as long as they don't cry.
I'm a helpless online shopping addict.
Reading's another of my favourite pastimes, along with eating. I'm very picky when it comes to food. No high-society taste though, I loveee tofu.
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Sunday, March 12, 2006, 3:33 PM
1st move
oh yah, did i mentioned? i JUS found a new job 2! but more bout dat ltr.. aniwae, i received my enrolment notice on sat. i only realised it now! 2 enrol in poly, u have 2 do sho much things. like go 4 medical checkup. submit enrolment online den send in those financial thingys like de application 4 tuition grant, giro, cpf, etc. i read until i'm sho blur lahx. still got checklist 4 de things we're supposed 2 submit lohx. after submition, still nid go apply 2 wat ez-link card n student dunnoe-wat-matric- card. i'm nervous n excited all at de same time. poly ish finally happening le. lolx! wat's my future gonna b like? hope everything goes well..
but 1 thing i'm sad about. i noe wo zai zuan nui jiao jian but.. as i reiterate in my last post, make new frenx but keep de old. how m i going 2 kip de old when its always mi who initate de conversation be it online or wat? when i always nid 2 msg dem b4 dey will msg mi back. when i nid 2 call dem or ask dem 2 call mi b4 dey would do sho. i feel like i'm de 1 who wants 2 kip de frenship alive but it looks like dey r not interested. take tis instance, we decided 2 go out on tis 1 dae but haven set de details. she asked mi 2 call her den i forgot bout it till at nite. it was near 11pm le, but she nv called mi herself or msg mi 2 ask mi bout our outing tml. makes mi wonder, if i din rmb n din msg her asking bout de details, would she call mi or wat? or would de outing jus nv happen?
i noe i'm like being tis clingy gerl. mayb its cuz i'm sho bored now n have alot of time 2 tink bout things, n meet my frenx. but tis really starts mi tinking.. ish it cuz i'm not a gd enuf frenx 4 dem 2 wan meet mi? m i not exciting/ enthu enuf 4 dem 2 have fun wif mi on de outings? m i boring? or m i hard 2 stand? i noe my temper n mood r smth less than gd. kl once said i was high-maintanence but i din agree wif her den. now, i TOTALLY agree. i hate de way i'm tinking n acting now. i hate myself 4 undermining mi, i hate myself 4 spoiling my own self-esteem n confidence.
NO! i can't tink like dat anymore. i'm gonna put tis behind mi n jus carry on wif my life. i'm gonna b more independent. although i'm sad when i tink bout my frenships, how many close n gd frenx do i truly have? , i'm gonna jus let it go n let nature takes its own path. usually i'm not like tis. usually when frenship sort of fades, i'll b abit sad dat we can't remain as b4 n instead bcum jus frenx who says hi n bye, but i won't tink sho much, i won't bcum insecure. i guess only time can tell, mayb dey r jus fair-weather frenx, jus a passing chapt in my life. mayb yrs ltr, when i c dem, i won't even recognize dem. dat's saddening, no matter who it happens 2. if dey c tis, all i can say ish, could u all jus call mi up or msg mi smth instead of mi having 2 make de 1st moves? let's take turns, can?
i better not tink bout tis anymore, its depressing!
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